I watched an episode of Catfish on MTV last night because, as someone who used to use the internet a lot to make friends, I'm still fascinated at how stupid people can be when trusting someone they've never met.

But then again, I guess the same can be said for me. How stupid can I be trusting those that I still get to meet face to face?

I've no room to talk.

Yesterday's episode Catfishee was a guy named Jose who had catfished someone else in a prior season. While karma served its real purpose, the only bit from the entire episode that clung to me all day today was when the Catfisher said he had no feelings for him and that it was all just a game, and that he meant nothing to him.

Jose throws up his hands, storms off and is just done with the situation. But what catches me off guard is when he yells out, to the effect of, "because of you, I'm done. I'll never love again. I'll never feel or trust anyone ever again."

Honestly, that hit really, really close to home.

When you lack such a security in your own feelings that it keeps you from ever being honest or open or afraid to ruin something or be terrified to even start getting into a situation, it's written all over your face. And those are the people those cruel people like to take advantage of. We're the easy prey.

Unfortunately whose fault is that? Those that hurt us, or we ourselves who choose to get so easily hurt? Is rejection something we inherently CHOOSE to feel?

Perhaps. But it doesn't mean I can help what I choose, and vice versa. I can only wish I could choose what I can help.