Crisis

The real reason for my self-identity crisis is that I constantly have to be in control of my thoughts, surroundings, feelings and everything else in between. I have to lock myself down. I have to have me down pat like lines rehearsed in a movie plot. When I don't, then I have a mental breakdown. I have to plan out what I want to be, be that person that I want to be, and when things don't go the way I planned, I just lose it.

I'm like that with everything in life. Nothing's changed, nothing's different. As we grow we change, or maybe we stay the same. Who knows? Have I stayed the same?