People who think they're so much cooler than me, I laugh at all of you.
What exactly are the rules of being "cool"? What constitutes as "cool"? The fact that you partied so hard in high school? I laugh at all of you who think high school was the golden age or heydey of your prime.

I'm not knocking on "cool kids" at high school. If you had a great high school experience, good for you. I myself had a pretty fun high school experience, and none of them had to do with alcohol or weekend parties. I was straightedge throughout most of high school anyway. I had a ton of friends. I had friends in every single class, and if I didn't, I'd make friends. I was loud, rambunctious, and obnoxious. I hung out mostly with the swim team towards the end of high school. I didn't drink after sophomore year of high school into senior year.

But did that mean I belong in a different "social structure"? I wasn't even aware that high school had a social structure like you see in 90s teen films. My high school was quite normal. Everyone was friends with each other for the most part. There were some cliques but for the most part people got along. The only people that didn't get along were the ones who were super desperate for drama and they consisted of girls who disliked each other for no reason at all. If you thought that was being part of a "cool group," I feel sorry for you. Basking in drama or getting into fights at weekend parties is cool? Of course when you're in high school, about 15-17 years old, drinking alcohol was the cool thing to do because it's in, it's hip, and the fact that it's against the law makes everyone feel so badass. Being a slacker meant you were cool. Ditching class meant you were cool. Getting detention or Saturday school for constantly having unexcused absences or tardies meant you were cool. I get that. I totally get that. I did my fair share of ditching towards senior year. Not too much, but I did ditch 3rd period every day. I won't lie. I couldn't stay in class even though I went home every day at 12:10 because I had a free 5th and 6th.

But to those who keep talking about how cool they were in high school obviously have a lot of insecurity issues if you think peaking at 17 years old is awesome and that's the only point in time you want to keep reminiscing about and reliving. I feel so bad for you. I had a great time in high school and I had a ton of friends, but it wasn't the highlight of my youth. No siree. That's why I hate coming back to my hometown...I know I'm going to see people from high school. What's funny is that these people are doing the same shit every single day. Same shit, different day. They're still hanging around with the same people, doing the same old thing, and never left Fullerton. They're probably going to be here for the rest of their lives, because they're complacent. They still get drunk at DTF, think they're so cool by sticking with the same high school cliques, and never moved out of their comfort zone. They never experienced life out of Orange County, and I feel so sorry for them. I'm sure their definition of "cool" is still intact. I'm not "jealous" of how I didn't run in the same circles as them; if anything, I didn't want to run in the same circles. I was friends with everyone. I was completely happy with the way I experienced high school. I just wish I was a lot less annoying and mean though.

 I remember I was so scared of how I was going to leave high school and this world of people I've met and spent most of my time with. I thought I was going to get homesick for high school. I really did love going to school every day because I had so much fun. I don't remember exactly what was so fun about it, but I remember I enjoyed it a lot, even all my classes. But strangely enough as summer hit, I didn't miss high school that much. I didn't miss it as much as I thought I was going to. I moved on.

I always believed those that always talk about how high school was the best time of their lives have obviously never been to college.