i miss santa cruz mostly because i can always count on someone to sleep next to me. i know i used to say i hated sharing beds with people which is true but i'm not going to lie, some mornings i want nothing more than to wake up next to someone. it's not one of those sleepovers where i'm going to bone them or anything; if anything, it's a lot nicer than that. it can be a close friend or a teammate, i've had countless number of people sleep next to me during college. i miss sharing a bed with michael. i'd always stay the night whenever he asked me to even when i knew i had early morning classes because i knew i'd get a back scratch out of it if i stayed. there were a few times where i just had to say no. i miss sleeping over at james's too. i'm glad we got to snuggle when i visited sc a few weeks ago. it's just nice sharing a bed with someone you care about a lot as a good friend. he'd always spoon me or insist on putting his arm around me while we slept which is nice until i realized my back would cramp cuz i couldn't move. just waking up next to someone is quite comforting sometimes. i've been feeling like this for a really long time but i just especially had these thoughts all day today.