I think it is in the early mornings when I first awake where feel the most sad, nostalgic, reminiscent, sentimental, and most importantly, depressed. This is where I feel actual physical pain, specifically in my heart, and then I feel a part of me diminishing little bit every single day, gradually, slowly, progressively, eventually, but only if I remember to remind myself of it every morning.

And then I have to give myself a good 15 minutes to shake off the feeling, rip off my covers, and jump out of bed to go downstairs to make a pot of coffee. And then I feel like my normal self again, right after a jumpstart of caffeine.

But until then I think about you.