Sunday, April 28, 2013

Sometimes it's too sad to listen to old songs that would remind you of those times of "remember when" or "used to be." Or it reminds you of exactly how you felt at that point in your life.

Sometimes music helps jog the best of memories but it isn't limited only to the positives. There are times where you want to bury some songs forever because it reminds you of those times that just hurt too much.

I feel as though when I listen to this particular song, it makes me feel as though things were so much more long ago than I thought. It seemed as though lightyears passed since that time period in my life. It isn't "I remember like it was yesterday," except yesterday feels about 20 years ago. The feeling I get from listening to a particular song makes me lose the concept of time, and distorts my mental timeline. I think, "wow it seems as though that was forever ago," except "forever" would only actually be a few months ago, usually less than a year, in reality.

Or maybe the song is helping me mend the timeline, no matter how much I try and suppress it.

You remember exactly how things were, how you felt, or what occupied your mind the most. And most of the time, they aren't the happy memories. It's like reliving the pain, but you can't stop listening to it. I hate that memory can be permanently attached to a past that you just want to shake off, but you never can.

And then you wonder if you'll ever be able to listen to the song normally ever again.

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