After class today.

I had an appointment with my Global Politics/History/Lit professor after lecture today, and while we were walking to his office he stops and looks at me and goes, "I read something you wrote on the school newspaper. You wrote it...didn't you?"

To which I sputtered out nervously, "Oh God...I didn't know professors on campus read Fish Rap Live...everything's a parody, it's a satire" blah blah blah pretty much everything I tried in the dictionary to tell him that the entire article wasn't a reflection of me or to get the idea that I'm a pothead out of his mind or viewpoint of me. Oh God. I'm a student of his...this is so embarrassing! He just saw so many parts of me that I'd never share with a teacher!

He laughed, and as if to relieve my anxiety about him possibly insinuating that I'm a pothead, replied, "Well you do realize when you are on a publication media, everyone's going to have access to it."

I hung my head in shame. Great.

He then continued, "Gina, your article was really funny. I really enjoyed it. I noticed that Fish Rap tries really hard to read like the Onion but yours...I liked yours. It was different. Your tone and style are different, which is why it stood out to me so much. Yours was way more interesting, and I'm glad that you're writing for them."

That made me feel a lot better. All this time I felt as though I was the odd one in my staff because I didn't write like everyone else. (They had rejected my first ever draft telling me that I didn't fit their tone). I had so many trials since I joined the staff because I felt as though they didn't like my style of satire writing and that I was so un-Onion like as they wanted to be.

To hear that the way I write is just fine and if anything someone likes it a lot better than how everyone else on my staff is writing it was a feeling I couldn't put into words. The gratitude and appreciation I had for my professor soared.

And then it took that little moment to realize that I think I'm going to start writing again. For real. I think I'm going to pick it back up, all thanks to the positive words from my professor.

But there is no way I'm going back to Tumblr...although my audience there is a lot bigger.

Decisions, decisions.