We have some major swim meets coming up already and it's only been the 3rd week of season. Swim is in full training mode and we have the University of Pacific Invitational this Saturday where a whole bunch of D1 schools will be showing up, including Stanford University, Cal Berkeley, San Diego State, Davis, BYU, UOP, you name it! So pretty much we D3 swimmers are going to get get our asses handed to us, but whatever. Our coach is great friends with all these coaches from the universities, which is why we get invited to compete at this meet. I'm just worried because I've been battling a bad shoulder injury the past 2 weeks and it's not geting any better. I've been seeing the trainers every other day doing some arm exercises but during workout it takes so much out of me just to streamline, swim freestyle, or do a backstroke recovery. I'm so scared. I've been downing a bunch of Advil before practice just to get through two hours of it in the water, and to numb the pain. My coach warned me not to do such a dangerous thing but I feel as though I'm falling behind because yardage is going up like crazy right now and everyone's getting back into shape except me. It's so frustrating because I'm not getting any better.

We have another meet coming up the 27th of this month in Oakland at Mills College, that we attend every year. I'm really not that excited for it but I think it'll be fun to see how everyone does. I'm just going to be so wiped out though! I haven't swam in a meet since February and throwing in 2 different meets this month alone is going to take a lot out of me.

I just pray every day that my shoulders get better. It started clicking whenever I swam in the water awhile ago and I can't swim more than 1 hour and 15 minutes a day, and most of it I'm only allowed to kick. I've been going to the trainers three times a week for physical therapy and they told me I really messed up both my rotator cuffs on my shoulders. I swam as much as I could today at least did the main set which was 5 rounds of 1x300 on your best interval, 10x50s on your best interval alternating specialty stroke. I felt as though I did pretty well considering I held 1:20 base on the 300s, which isn't too bad but still far from what I know I'm capable of doing. Last year on 600s I remember I'd beat all the guys and be able to hold 1:10 base on them! Sigh those were the good days.

Also, I feel myself getting sick, so that's totally fine. I'm so frustrated with a lot of things but all I can do is just keep calm and carry on. Or at least, swim on.