Things I Desperately Need to Do

• Finish my LTEL 120F essay by Friday
• Start working on my Education 128 paper which is due in 3 weeks.
• Start studying for the LTEL 155B midterm and complete the study guide
• Post in the LTEL 155B blog. 
• Make an appointment with Professor LaMay about Assignment 1 which is due at the end of the quarter; start looking for schools to observe ELD programs in class. 
• Make an appointment with the counselors/advisors about what classes to register for Winter Quarter, and also talk about applying for graduation.
• Do laundry
• Clean my room
• Vacuum
• Start re-building my relationship with God
• Fight depression
• Believe that I can do this.
• Know that I can be happy again.
• Understand that I'm only as unhappy as I make myself to be
• Start learning how to love life again.

I feel like making a To Do List helps me stay on top of things and re-organize my life since I've been feeling like a mess for about a month now. I used to be so organized and had my shit together all the time. Now that I'm older I feel as though I'm losing that motivation. I just let myself become a mess and I don't realize how much I'm fucking up by not caring. I need to stop saying that my depression is to blame. I'm not weak. I can do this.